where is my mind?

i find myself falling back into some bad, bad habits like staying out with friends until the wee morning when i have to be up and at school at seven, haphazard eating and drinking way more coffee than water. but how can i say no to a few drinks, a head with no worries and gettin' down to some swingin' tunes. i can't. all of this and more will catch up with me rather soon, i'm sure. christopher will be here tomorrow. you know what that makes me? the happiest girl in the whole wide world, that's what. it's true. i hate being away from him, i don't much feel like a whole person. i guess that's a little dramatic, but he leaves such an empty space when he goes away that i feel like i've been deflated. i feel insatiable with people that aren't him. so i obsess over every new face, new friend, until i'm bored with them and their tired same shit different day stories. he'll be by my side starting tomorrow and for the next long while that's where he'll be and i couldn't be happier.